Ironic

Remember that oh-so-innocent child I entered middle school as? That little girl, with her lists of what she wants in life, of what she wants in her friends, of what she wants in a guy, in that guy. That little girl grew up and has learned that, ironicly, even though she still wants those same things, she still has the same standards, perhaps a little higher. But ironicly, he has nailed almost every single one of them and I don't want him to. He has faults. Blaringly loud, annoying faults. And he still fits nearly every single one of my requirements for that guy, the guy I want to spend the rest of my life with. And the ones he doesn't fit, it's because we're in high school. Irony: Everything I ever wanted, I'm getting; but it doesn't seem so important to have it right now and I'm not sure I want it any more.

By your side

"Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you"
-Tenth Avenue North

Scream

"Does anybody know how I feel?
Sometimes I'm numb, sometimes I'm overcome
Does anybody care what's going on?
Do I have to wear my scars like a badge on my arm
For you to see me, I need release"
-"Scream" by ZoeGirl

A showering of love

Ebenezer Journals = amazing
Every day, you think of the little (and big) things that made life worth living just a little bit more, the things that may just seem like luck but are really God working in your life, and you write it down. It doesn't seem like much, but then you come to these days that life sucks. It's just so hard to see why God would even want you to carry out his plans. But, maybe, just maybe, you've been writing one of these journals. So you decide "Okay, maybe I'll just take a look if God actually ever works in my life." And so you look at these pages that are already filling up after a few days and you think...wow. God really does love me.
Ebenezer Journals = a reminder to keep living