Confusion and Destruction

She looks
She sees
She's jealous of their happiness
She had let him go
No intentions of him starting over
She still loves him
With all of her heart
Even though they're not together
Doesn't matter to her
She regrets her decision
Wish she hadn't made it
But they look so happy together....
So why can't she be happy for them?
Of THEIR love?
Of THEIR happiness?
Because she still loves him with all of her heart


The title of this poem is Confusion. Lizzie I need to tell you. These are my feelings. When you and Jeremiah started going out I got jealous. I still had feelings. I AM getting over it. I'm sorry I kept it from you. I had to tell you though... I couldn't hurt you over a guy. I didn't want to break you apart in case he still liked me so I didn't tell him....I don't regret it either because you guys were great. Don't be mad at me because of this. Please don't hate me either. If you need to be mad, that is ok. It's probably just my hormones raging but whatever. I AM truly sorry. I just didn't want to hide this from you. You deserve to know and I know I am a jerk for this but I am just so sorry. I shouldn't have let myself still like him. Anyway. So this post is just saying sorry to you. Maybe you won't be mad at me on Wednesday? Perhaps. I will be praying to God to forgive me and for you not to hate me for my irresponsible actions. Hope you understand. I know that sounds mean. Well. I am sorry if you think I backstabbed you too. I really am. Well I have to get off. Please forgive me if I can. I broke the number one rule of friendship - I let a guy come between us. So yeah. Bye. Thanks for reading this and knowing the truth.

Your horrible friend, Abby